Adventure Woman is gone!!!!

Gerard's adventurers, always having fun, can handle anything woman is GONE!!! Completely gone too. On Saturday after cleaning/working at the shop he wanted to go to Harrison Lake with the boat and have supper at Rainbow Falls. Our neighbor told us that there were thundershowers in the forecast, so I grabbed some extra food, in case we had to spend the night some were on the side of the lake, and even phoned my mom to tell her where we were going in case we were not in church, someone would know where to start looking. Adventure woman is cool with everything and thinking ahead. Life is good. When we get to the lake the sky has clouds (something that I haven't seen in weeks) and there are big waves, and I mean bigger waves than what we saw at the ocean when we went to Deception Pass a couple months ago, the kind that gets white at the top. But anyways I am still going with the flow (my husband's flow that is) and he goes off to pay for parking while I wait at the "ocean" with the kids for him to come back...and while waiting a young guy gets off his very new expensive boat (the kind that just looks safer than an old boat) that is rocking in the water (no docks at this ramp) and super friendly starts telling me how rough the water is especially when you go out "there", yup were we were going...and how the water is splashing into his boat and to be really careful. I told him we were going out with four kids six and under. (never mind that our boat is as old as the hills) So then the adventure woman is starting to feel not so adventurous anymore...but her husband comes back and starts going down the ramp and putting the boat in the water. Of course, I started to help, did I mention that there is no dock and it is crazy wavy, not good conditions at all for putting a boat in the water, and I slipped on a rock and almost fell on the rest of the rocks. I couldn't care less about getting soaking wet in the freezing Harrison Lake, but when I am pregnant I tend to get more protective of while, and falling on slippery rocks can't be good for the baby. (I know baby would have been fine cushioned in me, but I got annoyed nevertheless and thought what in the world are we doing) Adventure women is disappearing a little more. So we get off into the wavy (white-capped, in my opinion) water and are on our way with the kids checking on the pump in the back to keep the water out of the boat.
Now for a bit of history just seven short years ago (I was pregnant with twins but didn't know it at the time) we went with some friends to have a sleepover on one of the Islands and the lake was pretty wild then two, but I LOVED it, the water was crashing over the front window and we were standing up pretending we were on a ride from Disney land and as the boat hit the waves we would be thrown back in our seats. That was an Adventure woman. Now this time I was holding Danielle on my lap and trying to hold on to Sharleen so she would stay somewhat in her chair and not get thrown over the edge of the boat, and as we hit another big wave it felt like the littlest one in the side of me was going to fly out, drop out, came out and my face had a look of annoyance that my husband saw so he said were turning around and of course, I didn't argue. His Adventure woman was completely gone. Was not a happy family outing. I just couldn't stop thinking of the what-ifs... Timothy was in an adult life jacket, would it do any good in any emergency or just slip right over his head, if one went overboard would we even be able to get them the waves were so big, etc. my mommy's brain was going crazy. ( I think mommy's get more scared than daddy's). My mom said that just last week someone died on Harrison Lake when their sailboat flipped over. Of course, my Husband thinks we could have still made it, after all, we weren't in a sailboat. Me, still better safe than sorry, even if it means His "adventure woman" is completely GONE.