Perspective

Not that long ago a friend phoned to congratulate me on the birth of Breanne. (She had phoned some weeks ago and talked to Gerard, but I was napping) So after talking for a bit, she asked if I was fine with having another girl. (not the first to ask, or the first to say they were hoping for a boy) I told her that I did find out a couple weeks before having Breanne that she was a girl, as my obstruction has an ultrasound machine in his office. And to be honest, I was disappointed at first. I had wanted a boy, to balance out the boy ratio a bit, (and they are easier?) and it would be better for our bedroom situation. Only having three bedrooms, that way I could put two boys in one and three girls in another, as the days of Niessa and Timothy sharing should come to an end at some point.

But for me, it was so good knowing ahead of time that I was having a girl, as then I could "get over" not having what I thought I wanted, and get it all into perspective. Some of the thoughts were: that not even eight years ago we didn't know what God's plans were for us in having biological children and then here we are having our fifth in six years. (Gerard and I always say be careful what you pray for...) And the blessing of another healthy child, I should be thankful for even if it didn't fit into the plans I had for our bedrooms. lol. And by the time I had Breanne, I was soooo excited to be having another little girl. Then my friend said well you do have one boy, I don't have any, I would love to have one.

To which I replied, how many people in our Church would love to have four beautiful, healthy girls. You get pregnant easily/ don't have to spend thousands and thousands on fertility treatments, and have never had a miscarriage. You have had four wonderful girls in 5 1/2 years. What a blessing! (and it IS perfectly fine to want a boy or more boys...that's not the point I am making)

So it always shows...we want more

if we have no children we want children

then once we have that we want certain genders

and once we have one of the certain genders we want more of that.

And once we have lots of children we just want time to ourselves again. lol.